Back in my room...

Bellamie Asylum 899 date unknown.
I stare at the grey ceiling and try to keep the tears at bay. I miss GaNing, I miss my parents and I miss my team. I want my dagger back. I let my hand run over the wall remembering the feel of the inscription on the blade "I am your key - you are my life". The hilt fitted perfectly in my hand, I hadn't let it out of my sight since we came home from Orienta, when I slept I had one hand one the hilt - it fitted perfectly!
I wrap my blanket around me - tight - if I concentrate really hard I can almost feel his arms around me and his breath in my ear. But it's no good - Someone start screaming in a cell further down the hall and I know more will follow soon. I know my team is having trouble sleeping, I can tell from the look in their eyes, and sometimes I can hear their screams too.
My head is fuzzy, the drugs are more powerful now and I can hardly keep my eyes open. I choke down my sobbing and finally fall asleep. When I wake up my pillow is still wet.

When we came home from our first trip to Orienta we were all so scared. I think we all expected something bad to happen. I decided to call this Karma guy I'd met after our TV debut in "Run for your life", I had a big icecube where my heart used to be and I needed someone to hold me for a while. As it turned out he wasn't really interested in me in that way - well he was - but he had an offer for me and my team. Karma had noticed how well Blue had fitted on our team so they wanted to let us test another of their big new inventions - the Domino Dog. That was just what I needed, something to get my head of Orienta. The Karma guy figured I was the most responsible on the team so he asked me to come take a look at the different kinds and pick one for AAA - sweeeeeet!
I was introduced to 3 variants of the Domino Dog. A huge beast - almost tiger like, a small badger like dog and the one we've seen pictures of on billboards around Mort - the long awaited meanie! I fell in love with the dog imediately - its sleek well muscled body and the deadly jaws made me want to hunt through the cannibal sectors with him by my side. The Karma guys insisted on showing me what the puppy could do - I thought they're a bit mad and I really didn't get why they had to shoot the dog - they told me it's because they wanted to show how much hurt the beast could tank! They gave me a brief instruction on how to feed and groom it (a godzillian cans of proteine drinks would be delivered with the dog) and then they told me he is smarter than your average 313 stormer - wow!
I touch the wall again - I miss Red, I miss the way he licked my hand when he wanted something from me, I loved the way he always protected me, and I loved the way he and Blue could look at eachother and something was passing between them.
I named him Red because of Blue - I thought it was a really nice touch to have colorcoded stormers on our team - I can't believe how much I miss the others - even obnoxious Sean.
Someone scrambles at my door and the usual meal with the usual pills are pushed inside - I scramble off my bed and eat the grey pudding on the plate - I really hope we get to go to the dining hall today - I need a smile...